it could happen to you

When you're scared, what do you do? When fear strikes into the depth of your heart and it feels like nothing will ever be the same again what can you do?

Its happened the thing which you've been dreading for your entire life, yet never really thought it would happen to you. You are to innocent, to ugly, to different for a pedophile or a psycho to blackmail you. But it has to happen to somebody, so why not you? You don't realise it, and i didn't either until recently, that when you don't expect it something or someone can change or effect your life forever but sometimes its not in a good way. You can meet someone for the first time and instantly know that you want to be with them or that you'll be great friends, but you can also meet someone and not see the down side, who they really are. So be careful with new people, believe me it will save you a lot of hassle.

But when it happens to do what can you do? You feel alone and separate from the rest of the world because nobody has ever been thought this before so who can you turn to. Your heart starts pounding in your chest because you're in trouble and you know it but you can't see a way out or any chance of a happy ending. All you want to do is run, escape and go to somewhere safe and free away from all of this but you know that you have to come back sometime and face it all again so you can't. The thoughts that rush through your head at the moment you think you've lost the battle is indescribable. Home, is the last place in the world you want to be or ever want to be again, but you don't want to be around people and have to act and pretend that you're okay. You don't want to go through this any longer, you don't want to hurt or suffer or think any more. You would rather die than keep going on with the world knowing the mistakes you made.

But sometimes you get lucky. Sometimes, if you are won of the luckiest people on this planet somebody will help you. The world will never find out the mistakes you made and you won't have to face it all anymore because somebody is fighting the battle along with you and protecting you at all costs. If you have a parent, a partner or a great friend who does this for you make sure you know how grateful you are to them ever single day because they deserve it for saving you.

Nothing will ever be the same again, or for a while. Weather you lost the battle or were saved by someone you care about you don't feel the same. You're still in shock and getting your head around it for weeks. There are several things which you don't think you can do anymore in fear that history might repeat itself, so you are very careful. But i promise you this, whatever happens it gets better so don't be afraid.